06.19.07
need to make some decisions
Personally, I hate change. I hate having to move apartments. I hate looking for a new job, starting a new job. I hate having to reaccustom myself to new practices and habits.
I am a creature of habit. I like continuity.
I guess, really, I’m not unlike everyone else. We all like some safety, security, continuance in our lives. If everything changed all the time, I think many of us would be unhappy.
Having said that, I know that I need to make some hard decisions that will effect change in my life. One is about my job, my career. One is about where I live, my life as a renter. One is about long-term goals. One is about personal happiness.
I don’t wanna! 
Truthfully, just the thought of making these decisions is making me tired. I don’t want to be the adult. In fact, if someone else could take responsibility for a few days, that would be great.
{{sigh}}
That’s not true, I know. If someone else were trying to make decisions for me, I’d hit the roof. I’m not happy without independence. However, sometimes I do wish that weren’t the case.
I’ll let you know, at another time, what the decisions are and what my decisions will be. For now, I’m going to ponder.