10.20.07
Posted in Health at 12:03 am by Paloma Cruz
There are all sorts of tempting goodies in my apartment. Since I’m not the only person who lives here, I don’t have control over what food does or does not make it into my home. So I come face to face every day with the sorts of food that I so often crave.
I told myself that I need to learn to live with it. I need to learn to ignore the temptations, to work through it. And I convinced myself I could handle it.
I was wrong.
Let us just say that chocolate is not something I need in my refrigerator. Especially chocolate baked goods.
I’m very disappointed in myself right now.
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10.18.07
Posted in Health at 11:35 am by Paloma Cruz
I haven’t hopped back onto a scale; I’m not doing that until November. But this morning a pair of pants that were too tight just a few weeks ago actually fit well enough to wear. No, they’re not loose, but they were comfortable again.
When your clothes start to fit again, you know you’re on the right track. So the issue of pounds won’t discourage me. My wardrobe beckons.
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10.17.07
Posted in Finances at 3:56 pm by Paloma Cruz
Today I made out my last payment to Consumer Credit Counseling, or rather to Money Management Inc (the by mail service). This is the last credit card payment I have. All of them are up to date and paid off, or will be shortly — once MMI sends out the payment this month.
Of course, I know now that going through MMI hurt my credit score. And, yes, I’ve looked at it, it did hurt my score.
I didn’t know any better when I started. All I knew was that I was drowning in debt and needed help. MMI helped me.
I still have a few outstanding debts. Things that are overdue or have gone to collection agencies. My next step is to settle those.
Then I will start to rebuild my credit score. At the same time, I will save and invest money for my future.
Wish me luck
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10.16.07
Posted in General at 9:37 pm by Paloma Cruz
I just made the mistake of weighing myself, just a few days after the last time. Needless to say, there was no good news. In my defense, there was no bad news either, but I’m still bummed.
I know better than this. I haven’t lost a single pound since Friday and now I’m bummed. My first instinct is, of course, to eat. My first instinct is always to eat. That’s how I ended up the way I am. I will not.
I’m not going to weigh myself until next month. I can’t do this to myself, sabotage my progress.
Wish me luck.
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Posted in Health at 2:40 pm by Paloma Cruz
Today I had a chocolate cupcake. Just one and I had it in lieu of a snack. Still, I know it’s not the sort of thing I should be consuming.
I was good and had a nutritious lunch. I will not use that one small lapse as an excuse to throw away the whole day.
Maybe it’s that kind of decision that’s making the difference this time. If I do have a minor lapse in my “food budget” I don’t use it as an excuse to derail the whole thing. I am being a real grown up about this.
I think I’m actually commited to real change this time, and that makes all the difference in the world.
And, I admit, that cupcake was soooooo goooooood. Yummy.
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Posted in Health at 12:19 am by Paloma Cruz
Why is the second week of dieting harder than the first?
My mother always tells me that it’s the first two weeks that are the hardest, but you’d think that it would gradually get better. For some reason, with me, the second week is always the hardest.
And how sad is it that I’ve dieted often enough to know that?
But I managed to survive the day, in spite of stress and long hours.
And tomorrow is another day.
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10.15.07
Posted in Retail Therapy at 10:01 am by Paloma Cruz
Got a great haircut over the weekend, and went back to auburn hair. I’ve accepted the vain part of my personality that ensures that new clothes or a new hairdo will put me in a good mood.
I love my new ‘do. I’m in a great mood.
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10.13.07
Posted in Health at 10:46 am by Paloma Cruz
There’s nothing more gratifying that seeing results when you’re dieting. If I don’t see results, I’m less likely to continue on the right path.
I re-ignited my healthy living decision last weekend, this time actually following through. It’s been a hard week. It seems like I’m hungry all the time. And since I’m trying to regulate what I eat, I want everything I see.
I lost 2.5 pounds this week. Really, by doing small things. Cutting back on calorie intake by eating a smaller dinner and regulating snacks. Making smarter food decisions when I eat out as well as when I eat in.
I haven’t begun exercising again, yet. But I will.
In the meantime, I will bask in the glow of my lost weight. And continue to be good.
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10.11.07
Posted in Health at 9:06 am by Paloma Cruz
Great, as if I didn’t feel bad enough, Brazen Careerist tells me that being overweight may be hurting my career.
Being overweight or sloppily dressed is worse for your career than being a poor performer.
I’m not saying this is fair, I’m saying it’s true. So manage your weight, and manage the image you project at work, and you’ll do wonders for your career.
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Advice from Yahoo Finance:
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What makes this information particularly troubling is that so many people say they can’t make time to exercise and eat right because they need to work instead. In fact, if you’re overweight, you should probably put aside some of your work, accept that you won’t be performing as well at the office, and manage your image more closely by going to the gym.
That’s right — get rid of that perfectionist streak, do a little less work, and use that time to make yourself look better. People will perceive that you’re doing better work anyway. So instead of rationalizing why you can put work ahead of taking care of your health, start acting like a healthy person. Go to the gym at lunch, or leave work at 5 to hit the gym. Reorganize your schedule to make health a priority and your coworkers will respect you for it.
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Hmmm… that actually makes a weird sort of sense. Something to think about.
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10.10.07
Posted in Health at 10:27 pm by Paloma Cruz
I weigh 250 pounds. Nothing fits. I feel awful about myself… sometimes.
Exactly when am I going to actually do something about it?
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